Sept. 21, 2008- Sept. 21, 2010

WARNING: This will be a LONNNGG post considering I haven't posted in sometime and there is ALOT to catch up on.

First I have to say... I serve an amazing God.

I have struggled with posting an update for a while now... I have told myself that it was because I wanted to wait until we were farther along in the pregnancy (YES, I said the P word.. WE are expecting!!) to make sure there were no complication like before. So I kept putting it off. After time has gone by, God showed me why I was really dragging my feet. Me being me though, kept arguing with God (Yes I do that, and I dont know why, he is always right (=...) So needless to say I needed a WHOLE lot of prayer and just his word to help me along. And what God showed me was hard to understand at first, but the good thing about him, he doesn't leave you hanging =) I didn't want to post an update because I felt bad, because I got pregnant. Please DO NOT stop reading now because I dont want anyone to take the wrong message here. So... ya I got pregnant... Alot of people don't get pregnant, after years and years.. and I did. The second part of that is that with me being pregnant, we are not pursuing adoption RIGHT NOW. That was hard for me to.. because I know I know I know that we are supposed to adopt a child from Africa. The law states that there has to be a 6 month age difference in the children, so technically with the amount of time it takes, they would be a little more than 6 months apart, but we know thats not what we want, even though we still want to adopt. (I have nooo idea if iam even making sense). So we knew it had to be put on hold, and its hard because I have spent soo much time into learning about Ethiopia, the children, the conditions they live in.. and it breaks my heart for the children and its not like I can just forget.

However, after alot of time spent with God I have realized something I know, God is in control. He has a plan even though we may not have a clue.
Older children, waiting children have always been on our hearts, but since we are young when we decided to adopt we decided to go with a younger child. But now we look at it like this, I truly believe that there is a child in Africa that is ours. Maybe he isn't born yet, maybe he hasn't been put up for adoption yet, maybe he hasn't be abandon yet, I don't know, but I do know, that I already love that precious child of God, and so does his Dad and so will his brother or sister. And we will continue to pray for him and his family until we meet him!

I started the blog so that our child could see how much we loved him before we even held him and our journey to him, so with that I will not post about our pregnancy. There probably won't be a post for a while... but I will start back up again when God lets us know! =)

Please do not think Iam not happy about our pregnancy by this post. I am soo EXCITED beyond words. Every child is a gift from God.. and Matt and I know how truly blessed we are with our little miracle baby and we know that ALL the glory goes to God.
Love!!
P.S. So if you don't already know how amazing God is...listen to this... Sept. 21, 2008 was the first time Matt and I found out we were pregnant (SURPRISE) but God needed our precious one more than we did. Well after what seemed like forever, we started to listen to what God has called us to do. Well while we were "trying" Iam not gonna lie, I bought pregnancy test in bulk =) I had ONE test left and me being the thrifty person I am (NOT) decided one morning I would take it then throw it away not just waste it! =) So I took it, put it down and when about my morning, then when I went to throw it away I saw the TWO pink lines I had waited 2 years to see. But that couldn't be right, there was a mistake, I don't turn pregnancy test positive... but God does and I am soo glad he used me!! There was no crying... just alot of smiling, that hasn't went away. I had a cousin text me and say congrats on your miracle... and that is just what it is! OHHHH I FORGOT the important part where God shows off (as if he hasn't already) that was SEPT. 21, 2010. =) If anyone reading this doesn't know my God, please please ask someone, ask me.. because miracles can't happen if you don't let him in.